I've been thinking, lately, about all the events and experiences in my life that made me who I am today. I think many people would look at this as something positive. Something to be proud of. I don't. I think all the negativity in my life has molded me into a fearful, anxious, person, severely lacking in self-confidence in many areas of my life. I refuse to accept the way I am. I am motivated to change it. I don't want to be "me" anymore. I have begun my search for a new, brave, confident version of myself. Now, don't get me wrong, a lot of my life experiences have had a very positive affect on me. The majority of these experiences occurred when I was already an adult, though. A lot of the damage had already been done at that point.
My goals in this journey are to confront the people that need to be confronted, and write my way through anything else that may stand in my way. I'd love to have a therapist or counselor along for the journey, but I'm still undecided on that part. It would be much easier if I had someone to physically talk to about these things...you know, to get an outsider's perspective.
Through this blog, I hope to discover a lot about myself. I plan to post projects I have been working on and anything else that sounds interesting. Who knows where it will take me??
